oh the pain...

hello everyone.  this is going to be a bummer post, but truthful none the less.  i try not to complain about my pain all that often because it gets pretty repetitive to say and even more so to hear, but the truth is i am hurting.  i am in so much pain most days (like today) that i have a hard time even explaining it, but it is sharp and constant.  it's scary, i am on a strong pain medicine and i am still in this much discomfort.  i can't imagine how much pain i would be in if i didn't have these stupid little pills.  also, i feel like there is such a stigma attached with people who take pain pills and i want to make it clear that in no way, shape or form do i abuse them.  i will never take more than one in the six hour time frame i am supposed to take them, i have never taken a pain pill and had an alcoholic beverage (not even a glass of wine), i do not take them to get 'high', i don't even drive while i am on them - no matter my level of pain.  i take my pain pills when and because i am in pain. 

so, if i look like i'm sad, or hurting, or moving slow - this would be why.