no more menopause at 30

i wrote this around sometime around july , just in case you were wondering :)

so quick catch up.  i decided to not continue with the lupron shots. the second month that i was on them my pain actually increased nearly ten fold and it was just too much for me to handle.  its been 10ish weeks since my last shot and the hot flashes and crazy crying episodes have finally dissipated.

i am working on getting a Mirena IUD, which the lady parts doctors seem to think will help a little bit with my pain.  also it should stop my periods altogether: which are super long, heavy and painful (sorry if tmi).

so i am hopeful that my pain level may decrease, even if only an iota.  i'll take whatever i can get these days.

i am very lucky to have had so many wonderful people come from out of the woodwork and share their personal endometriosis stories or stories of their friends who have suffered with this ailment.  what i have gathered from all of these conversations is that if i do have endometriosis (which i am convinced that i do) the only sure fire way to eliminate the pain completely is to have a hysterectomy.

being a woman who has never attempted to become pregnant and is already halfway through my childbearing years the notion that i may never get to experience pregnancy literally makes me sick.  besides the whole hysterectomy may be the only cure for my sometimes debilitating pain, infertility is also a symptom of endometriosis - which obviously sucks as well.  the possibility that i may not be able to experience pregnancy really makes me sad.

not sure why i feel like i need to share this with all of you.  i guess i'm just voicing my concerns.  PLEASE believe me when i say that i will NEVER let anyone take out my baby making parts unless I have absolutely no other options and I have at least 3 second opinions!

i really really pray that it will never have to come to that.  although this is a fairly gloomy post i promise that i am still hopeful :)